It's not easy being me..(at least I am not a frog!)

Ribbit!

It's not easy to love myself. I have no excuses. It is not easy to write about some things … like admitting I have a drinking problem. Or admitting I weigh 220 pounds (up twenty pounds from January). It isn't easy admitting I spend a lot of time sitting in my rocker recliner while watching old episodes of Thriller and Alfred Hitchcock. My head is not on as straight as I'd like it to be, but then, was it ever?

I have not figured out the why of everything. I keep trying. I have upped my yoga to three times a week. The next thing will be to add strength training after the Monday and Friday yoga. Once the weather cools down, I plan to walk more.

I did a lot of research and have decided to pass on being certified in yoga. I am not comfortable with where the money goes and what you get in return for it. I would do better by taking classes from different teachers, by reading more books, and by researching online. Right now, I am teaching two days a week. I am substituting for our regular yoga leader on Mondays. I started offering a Friday class after several people expressed an interest. Eventually, I will be leading just the Friday classes. I keep getting this awesome feedback from my fellow practitioners! I feel this is the right step to take.

Last night was the first night in a LONG time that I didn't have anything to drink. Magically, the IBS cleared up. Gee, do you think two or three scotch and waters might mess up your gut? DUH! I plan to allow myself a little more time to be sure the drinking is back under control and not an every night thing before seeing my doctor too. If I continue to be a lump for most of the day, I will be talking to my doctor about the meds I am on. Perhaps they are making me sleepier than I thought? Right now, at this point, I do not plan to be alcohol free, just alcohol sensible. That means not drinking every night and definitely staying away from hard liquor! It seems like I go through this drinking crap every ten or so years. At least for today, I am confident that this latest binge is over.

In an easier topic to talk about, I finished the two thirty day challenges yesterday! That means I did 125 sit-ups, 200 crunches, 65 leg lifts, and a two minute plank. and 175 squats yesterday for my last challenge. My form was questionable. I didn't do sit-ups and crunches on the floor. I did them on my bed. I DID do them though! I seem to enjoy challenges. I am still walking ten minutes (or more) per day and still have not smoked a single cigarette this year. Yay me!

My next 30 day challenge is to repeat the squat challenge and add five pound weights to make it harder. I am also going to add this Muffin-top challenge:

At the same time, I am working to cut back on the alcohol. I am also working to watch my portions and to keep eating healthy. I will NOT give up.
Thank you to so many that take a moment to comment on my blog postings. There are a few of you that email me directly too and for that I am also grateful. I don't think I could do this without you and my support group. THANK YOU!
And now it is time for me to do a ten minute, Walk On y'all!!!