I have seen it so many times. People who have a wonderful blog or podcast or group, share their successes on weight loss. It is impressive. It is motivational. It gives one hope that they too, can succeed!Then the person disappears. On average, it seems like these people last about two years before vanishing. It is often weight creep that seems to do them in. It doesn't matter how they've lost weight. It doesn't matter if they've done a program or changed lifestyles. After about the second year into maintenance, they start giving up. I believe I am suffering a similar issue right now. My weight is creeping up.
I, however, refuse to accept that I might gain all my weight back! Not this time! I worked too hard to get where I am at today. What's a girl to do then? Well, goal setting is a start. I have set a goal of walking ten minutes a day for 365 days in a row. I am not sure I can do it, but I am going to see how close I can get! I also have a goal to be smoke free in 2014. I hope I can do both!
The weather has been up and down across the whole United States. Sometimes it is downright COLD here, and not comfortable to go out for a walk. I haven't let it stop me yet. I bundle up and do at least ten minutes and often a few more!I am also looking way way back to what I was doing when I was feeling the most successful. That would have been in 2011. What was I doing differently then?
I am not too far off on the eating. I need to pump up the greens a bit and cut out the wine a lot. I also think it is time to get even more serious about finding a trainer to get me back in to strength training.
So where do I go from here? I go forward and don't look back! What do I do now?
I set a new start date of February 1st. I made an appointment with a trainer. We meet up next week. I saw my doctor and got a cortisol shot in my knee. It hurts tonight, from the injection, but the osteoarthritis pain is gone. I hope this will allow me to hit the trails again.
I also asked the doctor about meds for my depression. I haven't had anything since September last year. I suffer from mild depression and anxiety. I find it hard to accept medication to help with the ups and downs of the mood swings. Lately, I've been in tough shape. I can hardly talk to anyone without tearing up. What has me so upset? I am homesick. I've been homesick for years and for now I can't go home. When depression sets in, I long to be back among our friends and family. I have neither here. I have tried, but it just isn't the same. So doc suggested a new med for me. Perhaps this is just the winter blues, perhaps it is just that I am one who suffers from depression. I must admit, I hope these pills help with the mood swings, the crying jags, the lethargy, the lack of sleep, and the feelings of hopelessness. I want to feel strong again.
So there you have it! It has not been easy to admit I am struggling like I am. On the other hand, it has comforted me in that I am NOT giving up! I WILL get this all figured out and I WILL get back on track and I WILL get back into one-derland. Yes, I WILL!
Till next time, walk on!
