Yes, today is my birthday. Number 58! I can hardly believe I am that old. I can hardly believe I am this young! I realized that my Mom was only five years older than I am today, when she passed away. My baby sister who passed away a few years ago last week, would have turned 50 this year. My oldest son will turn 30 in a few weeks and my youngest son will turn 12, a few weeks later.
What a life I have lead! What an adventure! What a thrill to contemplate all the curiosities the future will bring! And I have a much brighter future with a lot better quality of life ahead because of all the changes I've made over the past 24 months.
Let's do the boring stuff now, to see what has changed:
Year 2010 2012
Weight 291 188
Cholesterol 225 177
Waist 51" 36"
BP 159/89 113/70
BMI 43 27
Body Fat 42% 27%
Size 28 16
One of my old goals was to be at 175 by today. I missed that. Will I ever be at that weight? Maybe. I am not as concerned as I was just a few months ago, about reaching that goal weight. I am still learning how to live life in this new body. I am still learning how to accept that I am looking like a normal person. I still have a body image problem in that I still often see a fat woman in the mirror.
For 2012 I made the One-derland goal in January and the 100 pound total loss goal in April.
I've stalled out since then. However, I find it very easy to maintain where I am at. I still count calories because I still struggle with knowing if I have eaten too much or more often now, if I have eaten too little! I cannot believe I just typed that!!!
MY NEW GOALS for 2013:
- To continue to eat healthy and to live an active and FUN life!
- To continue to work on believing in myself that I CAN keep this life style going and that I WON'T gain back the weight.
- To continue to educate myself and others about living a better life.
- To continue finding new and fun activities to spice up my activity levels. (I am going to check out martial arts in November!)
Notice that there are no numbers in the goals I have set. I am enjoying where I am at right now. If more weight comes off later, that would be terrific. As long as more weight doesn't come back on, I think I will work more on just learning how to live this way for now. I have to learn how to buy the right clothes that flatter me. I want them to be comfortable too, but I want them to actually enhance these new parts that are looking pretty good for an old lady.